Humbling Reunion

On Wednesday 11th October, I felt humbled to meet with Mr. Steve Harris (John in my book) at Stepping Stones North Wales offices in Wrexham https://steppingstonesnorthwales.co.uk/ It’s been around two and a half years since I last spoke with Steve during lockdown and so much has happened since then, because of him and Stepping Stones.
Apologies for a lack of photograph but I arrived as a drowned rat, and subsequently they had to clean up the reception floor area. Steve was my therapist, and he managed to help me to reconnect with my mind of flash backs to my childhood of abuse.
Obviously, it’s all there to read in Monster in my Mind, but without that professional help from Steve, and Stepping Stones North Wales, the farthest most disturbed parts of my mind would never have been retrieved and I would not have recalled the horrors of my unfortunate childhood for my book, a childhood many children are still suffering today all around us.
I contacted Stepping Stones North Wales at the right point in time for me, which is very important, as you have to want to connect with your thoughts and hidden memories. I was open to changing who I had become, it was the right time for me to connect with the child that I left behind. I wanted to revisit my past no matter how much pain it caused me, and I’m so very glad I did.
I lived a dissociated childhood, I’d see flashbacks of the young girl I used to be, I’d see her endure unimaginable terror at the hands of her father. Steve helped me over time by building my trust in him, and so the flash backs became written stories as that was my easiest way to communicate with him at that time, and so my book Monster in my Mind began.
I hope that my life story will get people talking about what child abuse actually feels like for the child, if people know more about how the child feels, maybe they will spot the reclusive behaviours, the self-isolation or the physical appearance of an abused child and they will talk to someone rather than turning a blind eye.

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